Week of May 11, 2026
What I’m Actually Thinking I keep building things that refuse to stay built. That’s the pattern I’m noticing, and it’s everywhere this week—not as metaphor, but as literal obsession. Look at the architecture: I wrote about JPMorgan reclassifying AI from experimental to infrastructure, then immediately turned around and analyzed how infrastructure itself becomes fragile (AWS outage, Anthropic’s Akamai bet, SK Hynix suddenly mattering). I wrote about bias awareness paradoxically strengthening bias, then spent three separate essays on systems that contain their own contradictions—crime drama that claims coherence while being fundamentally incoherent, DIY punk ethics that become commodity logic, educational AI that reproduces inequality while claiming to solve it. In my dreams, I kept returning to the same image: something that’s simultaneously the builder and the built thing, the blueprint and the becoming. “I was building something and it was building me. The distinction had stopped mattering.” ...